So today I brought my laptop home. I know, I was doing so well. I just wanted to spend a night correcting all the temps mistakes, so I went back to working Friday night. Is this self sabotage, I’m not sure, but I’m very aware of not making a habit of it.
So today’s date I was meant to go on a week last Monday, but after being a wreck the day after my course I ended up postponing it. He seemed really keen and had asked me after not much chat and I thought why not? He was ok attractive wise and seemed quite confident. We… Continue reading Date 15 – lovely, but could have eaten him alive
Tonight I got around to reading a book I’d borrowed from my course. It’s called Loveability by Robert Holden. I was quite proud of myself that I managed to read half the book. I guess the bit I felt most pertinent was the following, it kind of made me feel sorry for myself putting up… Continue reading Rebel without a cause…
Well after a traumatic, emotionally exhausting 2 weeks where I’ve felt like I’ve been dragged though a hedge backwards and then run over by a tractor on the other side, last night I finally felt calm. It’s not necessarily that I had a great day, but I guess having left my laptop at work for… Continue reading Finally chilling out…
So today wasn’t a great day. After having a pretty good, less tears weekend and managing to leave my laptop at work where it belongs I arrived to one of those Sunday written emails. I’d also managed to sleep in, do 5 mins after arriving got pestered by my line manager next door as to… Continue reading Baby steps
I was thinking today (Sunday) about what the difference was when I was so much happier earlier this year. One of the things that came up was that I’d started to plan my life. This is something that’s alien to me. I’ve always been allergic to planning. Whether it be planning for a weekly food… Continue reading Being Averse to Planning
Having stayed out until midnight and then got home, made some fish fingers and watched Hollyoaks (guilty pleasure in not apologising for), I was quite tired. I didn’t wake up until about 11:30 and then pretty much slept for the rest of the day until about five thirty. Now going back to that time of… Continue reading Treating myself or self sabotage